Fitness, Goals & Motivation

Let’s Try This Again…

Hello all, long time no write.  It has been quite a whirlwind the past few months, with serious backlash to my weight loss and health.  I vowed to start over in January with my eating, getting back on track, working out again, yadda yadda yadda, yet here we are.  Back in January, I weighed in at 219.4 lbs, well, I have continued to gain, now reaching 232.6 pounds.  So all the work, all the effort I put into losing 40 pounds I am back at only a 10-pound weight loss.

I am embarrassed and immensely aggravated with myself.  Since gaining back 30 of the 40 pounds I have been having more health problems, including weird heart palpitations and severe knee pain, to the point just sitting down and bending my knees to get on the toilet is excruciating.

What is even more infuriating is I’ve lost the weight before, then something happens that I let get the best of me and fall back into old patterns, eating like shit, not working out, if you struggle or have struggled with losing weight, you know exactly what I am talking about.  This is nothing new for me.  I have spoken about this a multitude of times on this blog, I apologize for being redundant and yet again not following through with anything, are we really that surprised at this point?

Anywho, I’m not here to wallow in self-pity, because it is drab and wasteful.  I’m here to discuss the plan I’ve come up with.  If it works, fucking fantastic, if not, I’ll be here another day trying to find something else that will work.  I lack overall motivation and definite self-discipline.  At night, I tend to have this, “Tomorrow I’m going to do x, y, and z and start fresh.”  Then, tomorrow comes around and I manage to fuck it up.  Yet again.

James, my boyfriend, is going to be getting a Planet Fitness Gym Membership this week (aiming for tomorrow) and together we are going to start working out.  So hopefully having a workout buddy, this will get me back on track.  Next, I’m going to be researching another type of event or marathon with a specific date to give me something to work towards and train for.  Lastly, there are going to be more posts on this blog.  The objective is to take pictures of everything I eat and do an online food journal.  Hopefully, with this added accountability, I have more incentive to stay on track.

With all this being said, tomorrow morning I will post my official weigh-in photo, along with current measurements as well as previous numbers and measurements.  Then in the evenings, I will hopefully be posting what I ate during the day, along with pictures.  I’ll shoot for around 8pm to post everything that I ate throughout the day, I’ll even put a reminder in my phone.

So here’s to another round.  As they say, you only fail when you give up and even though this is tiring, annoying, pick any other adjective to describe my frustration, I’m not ready to give up quite yet.  Until tomorrow!


I DO MY BOYFRIENDS MAKEUP | Man is he a trooper!


Hey all and happy Saturday!  Things have calmed down quite a bit over here, which I knew they would but it doesn’t mean it wasn’t any less stressful.  “Snowmaggedon” has finally seemed to calm a bit although the people here are as dumb as ever.  Seriously, it was insane, people were stocking up on bread, water, milk, as if “The Day After Tomorrow,” was really happening.  The more rural areas of Washington, I’m understanding.  I live in a city and the manager of the Safeway I go to said this was their best selling week ever.  Even over holiday periods.  People are just idiots.  But whatever, I’m pretty sure most of us already know that.

Anywho, we are not here to talk about people being dumbasses and the general herd mentality bullshit.  Today I am bringing you a video of me doing my boyfriend’s makeup!  Honestly, never thought I’d see the day where a boyfriend lets me do their makeup.  I have not had good relationships in the past, this one is completely different.  I guess that’s what can happen when you give yourself plenty of time as a person to grow and hone in on what you are really looking for in a partner and looking for out of life.

I’m so happy as to how this video came out, it was a blast to film and honestly, if I left everything in there it would have been about an hour long… an hour long of a lot of laughing!  It was so hard for me to edit this video, I was laughing the entire time!  So, I hope you enjoy it as much as I did filming and editing it!


JANUARY EMPTIES | Products I’ve Used Up


Well, it has definitely been a hot minute since I’ve updated this ol’ thing.  It’s funny how you start getting into the swing of things then life has a way of swerving you a different direction.  I will say the last couple of weeks haven’t been too easy.  I’m pretty sure I’ve mentioned it here on this platform previously but my best friend is, well now I should say was, pregnant.  The last two weeks she’s been in the hospital due to complications with her pregnancy.  I don’t want to get into too much detail but unfortunately, due to those complications, she had to have a C-Section on Super Bowl Sunday and give birth to my niece.  12 weeks early.

On top of that, my baby Lillith Rose, aka Lil’ Bean chewed open a mass she has had since I’ve rescued her and needs to have surgery to remove the mass.  Her bloodwork is clean, she’s very healthy but it is still very nerve-racking for me, considering she is somewhere between 14 and 15 years old, I’m guessing anyway.  She’s my baby.  Unfortunately, she was suppose to have the surgery Friday morning, but due to the great “Snowmaggedon” of Seattle… that hasn’t even happened, the appointment had to be canceled.

On top of that, I’ve been screwed over at work more times than I can count, overworked and underappreciated but honestly, that’s nothing fucking new.  I’ve been super stressed out, have been staying up later than I’d like then waking up early.  I’m just exhausted, mentally, emotionally, and physically.

So what better way to deal with my emotions, besides eating which I’ve been doing a lot of and not working out?  Playing with makeup, looking at makeup, talking about makeup.  Today, I’m going over all the products I have managed to use up in the month of January.  It doesn’t mean I started and finished these products in the month of January, just completely used them up in January.  Does that make sense?  Let’s get into it!

Please Note: This post DOES contain affiliate links.  Thank you!

Products Mentioned in Order:
Wet N Wild Under the Sheets Makeup Remover Towelettes (Used 2 Packs) $5.98
Philosophy Purity Cleanser $15.00
The Body Shop Tea Tree Cleanser $8.00
Bath & Body Works Sweet Cinnamon Pumpkin Foaming Hand Soap $6.50
Jergens Firming Moisturizing Lotion $5.48
L’Occitane Shea Butter Hand Cream $28.00
Kat Von D Signature Brow Precision Pencil in Light Brown $20.00
J.Cat Beauty Pro-cision Micro Brow Pencil in Black $5.99

KISS Faux Mink Lashes in the style Midnight $5.99
Stila Huge Extreme Lash Mascara $12.00
NYX Vivid Brights Creme Color in Bad Blood $10.00

Makeup Total: $31.97
Combined Total: $94.95


ABH SULTRY PALETTE | 4 Looks 1 Palette + Mini Review | ABH SULTRY PALETTE : 4 Looks 1 Palette

Hey gang!  Happy Friday to you!  Currently battling a headache that is trying to turn into a migraine but dammit I am pushing through it!   I hope you are all doing well and are ready for today’s post/video.  Today I am bringing you 4 looks from 1 palette, the Anastasia Beverly Hills SULTRY Palette.  This came out this past holiday season and is still currently available for purchase.  With 7 buttery mattes and 7 creamy metallics, this palette brings more of a steampunk/cool toned vibe to the oversaturated warm tone market.  So, if you are interested in what looks I came up with for this video and what I feel about the overall palette, well click to watch the video below!




Products Mentioned/Used in Video:
Anastasia Beverly Hills Sultry Palette
Too Faced Better Than Sex Mascara
Smashbox Always On Liquid Lipstick in Tar Pit & Psychic Medium
Kat Von D Beauty Studded Kiss Creme Lipstick in Ludwig
NYX Glitter Primer


Hope you enjoy the video, it is my third video so I am still a bit rusty and the audio definitely needs some work.  Hey, I’ve never done a voice over here, so of course, it is not going to be top notch, but I’m working on it!  Let me know what you think in the comments and if you have some constructive criticism or some tips, I’d love to hear them!  Thanks for stopping by and until next time!



Hello, hello, hello gang!  What is up?  I’m going to be honest, it has been a bit tricky trying to balance this whole new YouTube shit, the blog, my personal life, and my actual job.  How some people do this all blows my fucking mind.  Kudos to those bad ass mother fuckers!  Because it’s tough, it really is, but I think totally worth it.  Anywho, that’s not what we are going to be talking about today.  I’m here to talk about all the new makeup that I just tried out!  Definitely quite a few hits in this first batch, so without blabbering on too much, let’s just get on into the makeup, shall we?

Please Note: This post DOES contain affiliate links.  Thank you!



Products Used in Video:
Primer: ELF Poreless Putty Primer
Foundations: Fiona Stiles Matte Finish Foundation Concentrate in 01 & C.Y.O. Long-Lasting Foundation Lifeproof in 101
Concealer: ELF 16HR Camo Concealer in Fair Beige
Powder: Covergirl Advanced Radiance Pressed Powder in 105 Ivory
Bronzer: Physician’s Formula Butter Bronzer in Bronzer
Contour: L.A. Girl Just Blushing Powder in Just Because
Blush: ELF Primer-Infused Blush in Always Rosy
Highlighter: Black Moon Cosmetics Moonlighter in Centipede
Eyeshadow Palette: Kat Von D Fetish Palette
Glitter Glue: NYX Glitter Primer
Glitter Shadow: Stila Glitter & Glow Liquid Eyeshadow in Diamond Dust
Setting Spray: Kat Von D Lock-It Makeup Setting Mist
Mascara: Too Faced Better Than Sex Mascara
Eyeliner: NYX Faux Blacks Eyeliner in Oxblood
Brow Pencil: J.Cat Pro-Cision Brow Pencil in Black
Brow Gel: NYX Control Freak Clear Brow Gel
Liquid Lip: Lime Crime Velvetine in Black Velvet

Other Products Mentioned:
NYX Can’t Stop Won’t Stop Contour Concealer
Urban Decay Heavy Metal Eyeliners
Bite Beauty Amuse Bouche Liquified Lips in Arrowroot & Infused
Pretty Zombie Cosmetics Liquid Lipsticks in Black Cat & Candelabra





1st Makeup Declutter of 2019! | 1ST MAKEUP DECLUTTER OF 2019 & HUGE ANNOUNCEMENT!

Hey gang and HAPPY WEDNESDAY!!  Today I am bringing you my first makeup declutter of 2019 and I’m also bringing you a huge announcement that I am so excited about.  Today’s post is going to be a bit shorter than my usual posts and the reason for that being… I STARTED A YOUTUBE CHANNEL!  I know, I know.  I said I’ve tried to in the past and I felt like I couldn’t really be me.  But, I tried it again and I felt really comfortable, so I said FUCK IT.  Also, something that I haven’t mentioned in the past, is I’ve been very apprehensive about starting a channel.  Lots of doubts floating through my brain such as there are already a ton of beauty channels out there, you are not a professional makeup artist, you don’t have anything unique to offer, yadda, yadda, yadda.  But you know what?  Fuck that.  We all have something unique to share with the world, a different view, a different approach.  If I take the doubtful approach, I would not be where I am today, even as a dog groomer.  Literally, for YEARS, I have wanted to start my own YouTube channel, but lack of self-confidence for YouTube and those doubts have held me back too long.  A few times a month, from various people, I have been told I should start my own channel.  Well, today is that day!  Now you can catch more of my sass in action and a bit more of my personality because there is only so much you can try and show through on paper.

So, if you would like to check out my first video, which so happens to be my first makeup declutter of 2019, CLICK HERE or the link below.  I hope to continue tieing in my blog with the YouTube channel in the future, so wish me luck on this new adventure!  I hope you guys have a great rest of the night!!




Foundation Friday: Makeup Revolution Conceal & Define Full Coverage Foundation | Foundation Friday: Makeup Revolution Conceal & Define Full Coverage Foundation

Hey gang and happy Friday!  Today is the start of my weekend and I thought to kick it off, let’s do a full day wear test and foundation review!  For makeup, my blog focuses on cruelty-free beauty, so today I wanted to bring you the Makeup Revolution Conceal & Define Full Coverage Foundation.  Currently, I have the shade 6.5 and it is a bit too yellow for me, I should have gone with 6, but I rather go more yellow than pink.  This is not a first impression, but it is still new to me.  I’ve worn it throughout the week, have some thoughts on it, but I wanted to showcase it to you guys, go over some things I have noticed with it, then do an update later on in the month.  Hope that is okay with you guys!  Anywho, enough rambling, let’s get on with it!

Also, quick side note.  Foundation Friday’s were inspired, for me anyway, by Taylor of ThaTaylaa.  She is the first person that I ever saw doing Foundation Friday videos and I’ve been watching YouTube for a very long time.  So, credit for the inspiration all goes to that wonderful badass!

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Alright, like you can tell by the title and into, it is all about the Makeup Revolution Conceal & Define Full Coverage Foundation today.  I picked mine up from Ulta and it runs for $12 and you get 0.8 oz worth of product, which is less than the average amount of 1 oz for more foundations.  It comes in 24 shades, with what I feel is a good variety of fair, light, medium, deep, and dark shades.  The packaging is frosted glass with a rose gold top and it is a doe foot applicator.  I don’t mind a doe foot applicator, the only somewhat issue with the packaging that I noticed is if you pull out the applicator too quickly, it can splatter a bit so be careful.


Today, I washed, toned, and moisturized like normal and for primer, I did use a little bit of my Catrice Prime and Fine Smoothing Refiner on my pores, but not all over my face.  From playing around with this foundation for about a week now, I have learned something vital in regards to application, do one small section at a time.  This foundation dries incredibly quickly.  The first time I used it, I had a hard time blending out the marks of initial application of foundation.  The best method I found was working a quarter of my face at a time, so that is what I did today.  On one half of my face, I used a brush and the other side a sponge.  I don’t notice a major difference between the sides, maybe a tiny bit more coverage on the brush side, however, it was easier to blend out using the brush but I did not like the overall finish.  So, I did go over with it with my sponge with no additional product, just to smooth it out a bit. | Foundation Friday: Initial Application, Front View | Foundation Friday: Initial Application, Brush Side | Foundation Friday: Initial Application, Sponge Side

Off the bat, not a huge fan of it.  It is not terrible but I don’t like how it sits on and around my nose, as well as around my mouth.  It looks very dry on my skin and very heavy.  Note, I do not have dry skin.  I have normal to slightly oily in my t-zone.  I rarely battle dry patches, mostly just on the tip of my nose. | Foundation Friday: Initial Application, Full Face of Makeup

This is what it looks like after putting on the rest of my makeup.  Another thing that I have noticed is that I need to conceal one eye at a time.  Something about this foundation, how quickly it dries, it also makes my concealer dry down quickly as well.  To note, I did not use a new concealer, nor new face products because I need to know how well this product performs.  Besides the slight issue with the concealer, all of my other products, powder, bronzer, contour, and highlight applied fine, no issues there.  After I applied the rest of my makeup, overall I do like how it looks.  So far no major complaints but I’m still not a fan of how it looks in my nose creases, my nose in general, and I feel it looks a bit weird around my mouth.  Check-in time is 8:30 am.  My goal is to wear it until about 5/530pm today because I am doing this post the same day.  I will be testing it out for longer time periods throughout the month and give my overall thoughts on this foundation then.

What’s on the rest of my face:
Primer: Catrice Prime and Fine Smoothing Refiner
Concealer: Tarte Shape Tape Contour Concealer in Fair
Undereye Powder: Milani Prep + Set + Glow Illuminating Transparent Powder (discontinued WTF?!?!)
Face Powder: Covergirl Advanced Radiance Pressed Powder in Ivory
Bronzer: Physician’s Formula Murumuru Butter Bronzer in Bronzer
Contour: L.A. Girl Just Blushing Powder in Just Because
Highlight: Black Moon Cosmetics Moonlighter in Centipede
Eyeshadow: Anastasia Beverly Hills Sultry Palette
Brows: J. Cat Pro-cision Micro Slim Brow Pencil in Black
Mascara: Covergirl Last Blast Volume in Black
Eyeliner: NYX Wonder Pencil in Light
Lipstick: Kat Von D Beauty Studded Kiss Creme Lipstick in Bow N Arrow
Lip Gloss: Dose of Colors Lip Gloss in Rockin’ It
Setting Spray
: Kat Von D Beauty Lock-It Setting Mist | Foundation Friday: 1st Check-In, Front View | Foundation Friday: 1st Check-In, Brush Side | Foundation Friday: 1st Check-In, Sponge Side

For the first check-in, the time is 1:26pm or let’s just round it up to 1:30pm.  It has been on for 5 hours at this point.  I don’t feel it has oxidized throughout the day which is fantastic for me, that is a problem I have with most foundations, them oxidizing throughout the day and turning me into an Oompa Loompa, so plus number 1!  If you zoom in around my nose region, I’m still not thrilled with how it looks.  It still seems a bit dry and cakey around the nose creases and underneath the nostril cavities.  I am noticing just a very tiny bit of creasing around my smile lines, but nothing major and I do notice a couple of dry patches forming under my lower lip.  Overall, I like how it is wearing, looks really nice on my forehead, I don’t feel oily or greasy at all.  At this point, I really like how it is warming up with my skin and I love the amount of glow my skin has at the moment. | Foundation Friday: Final Check-In; Front View | Foundation Friday: Final Check-In, Brush Side | Foundation Friday: Final Check-In, Sponge Side

Alright, so the final check-in is at 5:30pm today, as I said earlier, it is the same day.  I’m trying to quickly finish this up so it is up at 6pm my time (PST) for you guys.  So the foundation has been on for a total 9 hours, which is not as long as I would like, but still a decent wear time.  As you can see from the pics from above, I feel it looks about the same as the 1:30pm check-in.  It looks a bit dewier but still nice.  Still a little cakey around my nose and mouth area but it doesn’t appear as dry as earlier.  Also, the creases around my mouth are a bit more prominent but nothing that would deter me away from using the foundation in the future.


Alright gang, so that does it!  At this point, with the few times that I have used this foundation, I do like it.  However, I will give my final thoughts at the end of the month, once I try a few different techniques, primers, powders, etc. on top of it to make sure it works well with other products in my collection.  It has lasted really well throughout the day on my skin, and even though it is a bit tricky at first, I’m excited to keep playing with it throughout the month!  Have you given this foundation a try yet?  If so, what do you think of it?  Let me know in the comments!  Also, let me know if there are any other cruelty-free foundations you would like me to test out in the future!  Thank you for stopping by and until next time!